I

don't feel good today.

happy cat

i am so excited for the upcoming months. late fall and winter always seem to brighten my spirits. i love holidays! :]

i am so happy about everything right now. i couldn't be happier with my friends and more in love with my boyfriend.

head vs heart

if my heart wanted to run free with another, or the only [in my case], to places far off, if it were not to the liking of my head i'd deny my heart.
i'd deny my heart because logic is nestled in my brain. i seem to do what my heart says and end up in conundrums and shenanigans that i can't get myself out of.
my love is so strong, that if he begs "run away with me," i will dutifully follow, because my heart is snuggled up warm and tight in his chest.
i'll tell you that i've listened to my head, but i've disregarded it entirely.

i think i want a quote along with my nautical tattoos

something i sorta made up in my head

but i want it in french

la vie n'est pas une carte, mais un crayon pour dessiner votre propre carte.

far away

if i leave you here now
my love will you follow me down?
if i keep close by, oh
my love will you sever our ties

cause i know that time isn't what changes us
distance doesn't either
its our hearts, our minds
let's bring the miles closer
away we go.

i am now

the proudest owner of a flickr pro account thanks to my friend mike :D

yay!

apparently

I am going back to my mom's house in a week to look for a job. So I can live with her part-time.

I am unsure how to feel about this.

all the cracks you see can be repaired

Jeepers. I have not blogged in a while. I tried to keep up with a livejournal, but I apparently couldn't. So I was just like, "I guess I will give the world of blogging another shot." And here I am.

Anywho, right now I am listening to the Weepies. It's really late (or early, technically) and I should probably be asleep. I am just having a really bad night. I feel like such a selfish human being. I can't believe that I am such a bitch that I act like the world's problems are mine alone and that they can't compare to anyone else's. (I dont really think this way, but to step away from myself, it seems like it). People have diseases. I don't. I just have all these stupid pent up emotions from problems from years ago. And boyfriend trouble. Well the kind that I create in my mind because I am an uptight nutcase.

Ok, I should sleep so I can wake up and take my 365 photo tomorrow.
I just hope I don't feel so sad tomorrow. My boyfriend really doesn't deserve all the shit I put him through. He's really great. So are my friends. I need to grow up.

xx